I have recently been working hard at effective communication with my husband about topics that fluster and embarrass me. Today, it is taking the form of a "Let's pretend, and this is what I imagine" type letter to him. I can imagine what his response will be :)
I have a confession to make: I have been feeling a little mischievous and I’ve been very tempted to be disobedient these past few days! I don’t like feeling this way, but I don’t act on these feelings because I don’t want you to be disappointed in me. I don’t want to do anything too bad….I just want you to be angry or frustrated enough with me that you really want to teach me a lesson not to mess with the boss. Last night was very nice and I did enjoy my time with you, especially after you were done whipping me and let me “thank” you properly on my knees. But….I am still feeling like being a bit wicked! So let’s pretend that I really did drop your phone in the bath…..which I took while you weren’t home! When you asked me where your phone was and I told you what happened, would you make me take my pants off and stand in front of you in just my panties and t-shirt while you lectured me about following the rules? Would you tell me I was a very naughty girl? Would you make me ask you nicely for my spanking before pulling me down over your lap on the bed? I would say “Please spank me hard, Sir” even though I didn’t want you to because I would know I deserved it. And even though I don’t want to be punished I would only beg a couple of times “Please don’t spank me, I’ll be good!” But I’m sure you wouldn’t listen to me because you know that if you don’t thoroughly assert yourself when I misbehave that I will think you don’t care about me anymore. And you really do love me, so you would make up your mind to show me just how much! I would squirm over your lap a little bit I’m sure, as I heard you open the paddle drawer to choose an implement. I would be praying that it’s not the motivator! Since you would be spanking me because I was bad, I just know you would spank hard right from the start! You would probably ignore my desperate pleas and tell me to hold still and take my spanking since I earned it. Would you put your leg over mine to stop my kicking from ruining your aim? Would I try to wiggle away, only to discover that I can’t move and I am completely at your mercy? I think I would feel helpless then and remember that you really are the boss, as you light a fire in my bottom cheeks! Would you pull my panties down then to make sure I could feel every hard, fast smack? I know you would keep going until my ass was bright red all over and I was crying hard, because that’s how to make sure naughty wives remember to behave. You would probably stop then and ask me if I was going to be good. Of course I would answer “Yes, Sir” because I don’t want to be spanked anymore! But you wouldn’t really care about what I want right then, just about what I need. And I bet you’d think I need a little more “convincing” to really be good and not end up in trouble again anytime soon. So you would decide to keep going, slower but very hard, while you remind me why I’m in trouble. I bet you’d say “Do NOT take a bath unless I am home!” and “You should have been paying attention to the phone so it wouldn’t drop!” in between smacks. Then, once you were convinced that I was one very sorry girl, you would let me up and hold me. You would tell me that it’s ok now and that I am your good girl again. And I would know that you speak the truth: the punishment you selflessly administered has magically transformed me into an angel, and I know I wouldn’t feel the urge to be a brat for quite a while!